Vanity 8/8/22

they say vanity is bad cause it’s a sin to be prideful. 

i have this complex of not wanting to like something too much because it always goes away and that is self sabotaging.

you should savor the moment for everything it is because it will pass and that’s ok, most things do. 

i want to remember what i look like because i always forget

i didn’t chose my face i didn’t chose anything about myself but to work it. 

people hate themselves and go into hiding, i know cause i’ve done it, like we don’t deserve to be seen because we don’t like the way we look. 

there’s nothing you can do about the way you look, all you can change is your own perception and be prideful for being you.

you’re the best, you’re all you have treat yourself well, all things pass but you

if you think you’re ugly just chose to be beautiful it’s really that simple it’s a mindset 

ever since i was little i was always confused when people around me called other people ugly cause they didn’t look ugly to me they just look like a person.

then i was called ugly and it felt like i was being branded. 

this heavy weight of shame and guilt came over me like i was a beast deserving of nothing but ridicule but i was only a child 

a face is a face to me all equal, all deserving 

you stop being ‘ugly’ when you stop letting other people have that control over you. 

then they become the ugly ones, mean spirited people who want to project their insecurities

cause we all know people who try to shame others aren’t happy with themselves either.

i’m insecure sometimes and that’s ok we all are, but through my venture of life i’ve met other insecure people who hate themselves deeply and they see you working with what you got and they hate to see it

they think you should be in hiding like them or that you should ‘humble’ yourself. 

it’s sad to see miserable people spreading their misery but it’s just second nature to them. i hope they grow and change from this stuckness but 

some people are born to be haters and that’s ok let them hate, they’ll still watch you 

in conclusion 

work with what you have, chose to be a beautiful soul and it will radiate 

ugly is a mindset, ugly people are mean spirited

take pictures of yourself often you will never look the same again 

enjoy the moment 

enjoy yourself you own nothing but yourself you dictate what you do with you 

people are miserable don’t join them

only associate with people who value YOU

aesthetics are bullshit 

be prideful and secure, don’t value yourself too much that little changes throw you into a frenzy, be kind and uplift others but only if it feels true to you. don’t lie 

have some vanity but don’t be vain