Pressure Patience Preservation 8/28/22

i desire many things and longing is the comforter i rest under 

when these things i’ve always wanted come into my life i press the brakes 

i’m not ready for what i want most and i’ve passed up buisness opportunities for sake of my growth and preservation 

people are willing to devote their time and money into me and it’s all i’ve ever wanted but now is not the time to commit to such a big venture 

i know my worth and i will not compromise on my vision 

they argue the world dosent work like that but i argue that my world does and my word is final 

i like the idea of sponsors and collaborations more than a stranger trying to take a cut of my labor and creativity when all they have to do is crack their knuckles and work behind a computer 

i want complete control over what i partake in creatively when i am the only name behind the real product 

i have this pressure to be quick and precise but i as a flawed human being is steady and i must be patient in what i want most because if i am not finished preserving i will rot 

all this to say i choose myself over a buck anyday