Healing Through Work 7/21/22

i am a frustrated person and i consider my art my work. 

it’s natrual to become frestruated at work yk once things get hard and i gotta use my brain more than i already am then i become frestruated i’m tempted to give up

i don’t want that to be the pattern of my life

ambition, action, failure, scrap 

this pattern has often dictated how i treat myself and i don’t want to fail and scrap myself so what helps is constant revision.

i get too stuck in my head and in my ways i become stuck eventually starving 

the pattern should be 

ambition, action, failure, revisional break, ambition, action

when you’re unexpierenced you have greater expectations cause you’re working with only your imagination

with time and keeping the clouds in the dirt

it becomes easier to think logistically

you don’t fail because you’re a failure, you fail because you’ve become close minded and you void your possibility of success because you forgot about other possibilities 

life is a maze with multiple exits and dead ends we make agonizing by having expectations, when 1 path dosent work and we drop to our knees in the corner of a dead end and sulk, that’s ok in the beginning but 

we need to grow to become undeterable because dead ends are inevitable

it’s most important we get up, turn around, and try something else. 

you will never fail if you decide failure does not exist outside of your mind